Thursday, September 18, 2008

One Long Night

Just as a I started to let my guards down I was faced yet again with uncertainty of life. OK, let me start from the beginning. On Monday I had my second Beta result which came back at an astounding 6453. I was feeling pretty good and told my parents and my sister. My parents were excited and wanted to have us over for a celebratory dinner on Tuesday night.

Tuesday morning I had a bit of spotting. I tried my best to not panic and remembered that spotting in first trimester is not always cause for concern. So by evening, I was feeling good again. We went to my parents and had a lovely dinner. I went to the bathroom after dinner, just to be faced with red blood flow, at this time I broke down into tears and couldn't get enough composure to make my way out of the bathroom. I spent what seemed like a long time in there. When I finally came out to tell my family what was happening, I could barely speak. So I called the emergency number at the clinic. The on-call doctor told me that if the bleeding continues for over an hour and I start having cramps, I should go to the ER, otherwise I should go to the clinic first thing in the morning.

On the drive home the cramping started, I was besides myself. When we got home, I discovered that the bleeding has actually slowed down. So I decided to wait it out. You can imagine what kind of night I had. Going to the bathroom for what seemed like every 15 minutes to check and see what's going on. Anyway, we made it to the clinic in the morning.

Dr. Hotstuff and nurse Grumpy were in the exam room. They did an ultrasound and there it was an actual yolk sak in the uterus. Of course, Dr. Hotstuff said that it was no guarantee of the viability of the pregnancy, but everything is as it should be. I should do another ultrasound in a week to see if there is a heartbeat. She said there was nothing to be done, I should just go home and relax and avoid stress (easier said than done).

We came home somewhat relived, but still confused. I took the rest of the day off and obsessed about every twinge of pain and every small cramp I felt. So, I decided to come to work today to at least keep busy and take my mind off of every little thing that's going on inside.

10 comments:

Isn't it pretty to think so said...

SO sorry for your scare. I am in the middle of one of my own, so if you need to talk, scream, cry, etc. let me know. Waiting sucks.

Jess said...

Ugh, I'm sure you're terrified. So sorry you are going through this. I'm happy to hear that "everything is as it should be" and really really really hope that you get more good news at the next u/s. Hang in there...

2roads said...

Oh, Joonie, what an awful nightI How terrifying!! So sorry you have to endure this. I'm relieved to hear that the ultrasound revealed things at this point are OK. All my thoughts will be with you during this next stretch of days. Hang in there.
Love, j.

Pepper said...

One long night indeed! Sounds absolutely terrifying.

I'm glad the ultrasound was as it should be and I hope that this scare is the last. Hang in there, Joonie. Hugs to you.

Evil Stepmonster said...

Go home and relax indeed! Next week must seem an age away. A yolk sac is good news though! Thinking of you. Take care.

mybabyquest.wordpress.com said...

I will be sending you positive thoughts and all of my good wishes.

Lisa said...

ending good thoughts and prayers to you and your bean. Stick, little beanie, stick! That sounds just so scary. Hang on to the knowledge that you had nice numbers and, as the grumpy doc said, "Everything is as it should be" on the u/s. So sorry you have to wait and worry.

2roads said...

Waiting and hoping right along with you-just checking in to see how you and the bean are doing. I thought about you all night last night and hoped that it was smooth sailing. Take it easy.
j.

Peeveme said...

Sorry you had such a bad scare. I hope the next week flies by and is completely uneventful. I hope it's just that those little ones are digging in for a long stay.

Michelle said...

Hang in there, and rest! Sending positive thoughts and prayers your way.