Thursday, August 21, 2008

15 going on 38

I must say that I have really enjoyed the estrogen ride of the FET protocol. It has been the strangest experience. I have had an unbelievable stamina and have felt invincible. Last weekend as I was driving into work (for the 3rd consecutive weekend), this song came on the radio, a song from my teenage years, and there it was! I was a teenager again, with all the hormones running through my system and I felt like I had my whole life ahead of me, ready for anything and everything. Later that day I even felt a pang of teenage angst. It was all there! Unbelievable! Has anyone else had similar experiences?

Well it was fun while it lasted. Tonight, I will start my PIO shots which will bring me back down to earth, I'm sure. I had my blood test and ultrasound this morning. Everything checks out, I'm on schedule for a transfer on Friday. I can't wait (See it's that teenage optimism again)!

Thursday, August 14, 2008

Estrogen Rage?

I woke up yesterday morning in a state of panic. I had overslept for 15 minutes and it threw off my whole morning routine. My poor husband tried to make me breakfast and burnt the toast. And what did I do? I lashed out at him for "never doing anything right" and then went off to work and the saga continued. Everyone seemed incompetent and set on making me lose my temper. It wasn't until the afternoon that it dawned on me. I had taken my first estrogen injection the night before. Could this be estrogen rage?

After that pseudo-realization, I felt better. Mind you, I still was just as irritated and impatient, I just knew that every one wasn't out to get me (except maybe for my RE and my boss).

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

On Time Arrival

My AF arrived right on time yesterday. I went in for my baseline appointment this morning. Everything checks out. I start on the Del Estrogen shots tonight. Yippie! How I have missed the needles (NOT!). The FET protocol seems very simple. I only go in one more time (8/25) for a lining check and the transfer is scheduled for 8/29, the Friday before labor day weekend.

I'm kind of excited to be off the bench. I'm not sure how I feel about my chances of success for this cycle, but at least I am doing something.

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

Good News!

I talked to my nurse yesterday and my FET has been moved up! Yeah! She said if I manage to get my period early next week, I can start the cycle right away and have a tentative transfer date of Aug 29th. Apparently the embryology lab will be open the last week of August and they had a cancellation so they can fit me in.

I am so happy I don't have to wait another month. OK, I didn't do everything I thought I would do between cycles (exercise, lose weight, etc.), but I'm so glad that the wait will be over soon. I feel like since I started TTC, I've been waiting (and hoping) for something or other to happen and it's really wearing me down.

Here's to getting on the roller-coaster of another cycle!

Monday, August 4, 2008

2 Steps Forward 3 Steps back

This past weekend I went on an all girls trip with my sister and two of our female cousins. It was great! I had a lot of fun. We went to the beach and had ourselves a really good time. I was able to join in and have a drink or two (or three) with the rest of them and let myself forget about all my troubles for a while.

On the way back, I was dropping off one of my cousins at her house, it was just the two of us in the car, when she out of nowhere asked if I was going to try to get pregnant again! Now she knows of my recent ectopic pregnancy, but she doesn't know about my IF struggles. Of course, instead of responding, I started crying. My poor cousin, helplessly tried to console me to no avail. I just couldn't stop the tears, I must have gone on for what it seemed like a very long time. She kept apologizing for being insensitive and thoughtless, etc. etc. In the end, just as we approached her house, I was able to stop crying and tell her that I have a hard time talking about it right now and left it at that.