Friday, May 30, 2008

Non-zero Beta

I don't know what's worse, getting a BFN or a really low Beta. My Beta is 16. So technically I'm pregnant since anything above 5 is considered pregnant. But most likely not for long.

I am a little too numb right now to feel one way or another about it. I was expecting a yes or no answer and I got a most probably no. I hate this!

10 comments:

2roads said...

Damn it. Damn it. Damn it. A really big number would've been better. I do know there is still a chance, so I'll keep being hopeful for you. I also know it's not what you wanted to hear today. I'm so sorry you have to stay in this limbo. Another beta in 2 days? Hang in there.

Pepper said...

Oh, Joonie. Damn! I'm fighting back tears here because I was just so SURE this cycle would be the one. I'm so sorry, my friend, and I wish there was more I could do. If you think of anything, please let me know.

xo

seriously? said...

I'm sorry there wasn't anything more definitive. Still hoping news improves.

mybabyquest.wordpress.com said...

I will be hoping that this is just the slow start to a beautiful thing.

jp said...

I am so very sorry to read this.
It sucks very much, it really does.

I am hoping, along with everyone else, that you get some great news on your next test.

the Babychaser: said...

Maybe you'll be the one they write all those stories about! You know, the low-beta-turned-into-a-live-baby stories people posted on my blog in the past three days. After all, someone has to get lucky, right?

I'm so sorry you're having to deal with this. I admitted to my husband last night that I had spent the past two days talking to my little embryo, begging it to live. But I'm pretty sure it was already gone by then, even before my first beta.

See if you can find ways to distract yourself. And/or pamper and baby yourself.

Isn't it amazing how infertility is all about waiting? I was never a very patient person, but this has brought patience to a whole new level.

Good luck, honey.

Paranoid said...

I'm so sorry. I'll be thinking about you and hoping that you are pregnant, just with a slow-starter.

I know it's terribly corny, but [hugs].

Jess said...

I'm here just hoping along with everyone else that this turns into a strong pregnancy for you. Everything crossed for next beta!

2roads said...

How are you, Joonie? I'm thinking about you.

the Babychaser: said...

I imagine you're getting the answer sometime today. Good luck. I'm not a hotbed of hope right now, but I'll try to muster some up for you.