Tuesday, March 3, 2009

I Failed Again!

It's official. I have Gestational Diabetes. I failed my 3 hours glucose tolerance test. I'm trying not to be overly distraught about it, but I'm not sure I'm doing such a good job of that.

I'm scheduled to meet with a dietitian this Thursday to discuss next steps. However, I've been researching GD diets online and they're really not all that different from what I'm eating right now, so I fail to see how sticking to my diet (with some minor adjustments) is going to help any. Of course, as always, my mind wonders to all worst case scenarios (insulin shots, large baby, C-section, etc.). In a way this is not that different from all the other emotions that go with IF. The "why me?" factor is there as strong as ever. You know, I try to eat right, I take walks and I have only put on 17 lbs for this pregnancy (I'm in week 29). So I really didn't expect to be diagnosed with GD. But here I am. Yet another label I'm in denial about.

On the bright side, I only have 11 weeks to go (if I actually make it to 40).


Peeveme said...

Oh man, I'm sorry. That is a load of worry on your mind. I'd also be doing the "why me" thing.

You might be in for some shots if you are already being healthy. I know you can handle this. You have already handled much worse than this. It's not forever and if controlled GD is not going to risk your health or baby's health.

But let's just have a moment of thinking out load how much this sucks before we move onto making the best of it.

It sucks!

Shinejil said...

I'm sorry, Joonie!

But you'll leap this hurdle, and get through this. It won't be long before you'll have a completely different set of concerns on your hands. :)

Lisa said...

I'm sorry, nobody wants that dx. I'd totally be upset too. If it helps, I've seen quite a few in the same boat that all did just great (moms & babies both) by just following the plan they were given -- even if it wasn't that different from what they were already doing. The main thing is that you're being monitored. You can make it through!

Melanie said...

Can you ask for a regrade? Extra credit? Seriously, I'm sorry. Another pain in the ass. BUT, you said it best...another 11 weeks. Hang in.

Alexicographer said...

Hi. I came over from LFCA and after reading my post see that you are in a situation similar to the one I experienced ... other than maternal age, I had no risk factors for GD, but there I was.

I did find it was manageable through diet but also found I had to be smart about two things. One was sticking up for myself when my numbers were just slightly over where my doctor wanted them (my clinic wanted fasting at 90 and post-prandial at 130, though some set those numbers at 105 and 140; I couldn't believe I found myself in an argument over a few 92s, but I did ... but I stuck by my guns and to good effect (incidentally my son was born full term and healthy and at 7# 5 oz. was hardly large for gestational age...)). Two, I had to learn how to manage my own BG in a way that I was not taught, which basically ended up involving being sure I got my night-time BG up to around 125 after dinner or it wouldn't fall far enough overnight.

GL dealing with this. It is a pain, but it's manageable, honestly.

Kmom has a lot of great information on GD on her website, through here -- http://www.plus-size-pregnancy.org/. Although the description of the page presents it as being for "plus size" women (I have no idea if you fall in this category or not!), it's really good information no matter your weight!

Evil Stepmonster said...

I'm sorry Joonie.

As Peeveme said - you have already handled much worse than this - but its just an extra hassle you really didn't need. I expect it means closer monitoring as well.

I hope things are going okay with the new diet.